February 16, 2011

Caution, meet wind. Wind. Caution.

I've always been a rather deliberate individual, with only occasional sojourns into the world of the unexpected. I'm not boring, just. . . cautious.

This has been particularly true when it comes to my finances. I considered it a badge of honor to have saved enough money to last over two years in the event of an employment/income emergency, and I can count on one hand the number of considerably big purchases I've made in my lifetime. I usually have to sacrifice a chicken and a goat, and then read their entrails before I'll put more than $1,000 towards anything. That alone could become expensive, because goats just don't come cheap.

That was before the waning days of 2010, when the fecal excrement came into contact with the oscillating air circulation machine. This last month and a half, I've regarded my savings as something that's just not all that important right now, so I tend to look at certain purchases in a different light.

For example, our digital camera just up and stopped working Sunday night. Ordinarily, I'd hem and haw and dither about what to do, but because we wanted photos of our daughter on Valentine's Day, I just up and went to Best Buy and bought a new camera. The precarious nature of Zoey's day-to-day existence just trumps any financial considerations.

If, tomorrow, a specialist were to tell me to pay him $5,000 to perform an immediate procedure that could improve her chances by one percent, I wouldn't be able to write a check fast enough.

Of course, all of this NICU care is going to cost astronomically more than $5,000, but I'm trying to stay within my own current financial reality to make a fairly sappy point.

Posted by Ryan at February 16, 2011 06:44 PM | TrackBack

We want video! And pics! and all that! :) I enjoy your blog immensely and news of Zoey, yourself and all <3 Cheers!

Posted by: Danielle Teal at February 17, 2011 01:39 PM

(Came here from Instapundit.) I think it is a sweet point, just a teeny bit sappy. You don't know me and I don't know you, but I wish you and your sweet family the best. Good luck with everything!

Posted by: Keryn at February 19, 2011 10:53 PM

Ah, the video camera. Ironically, we bought ours literally two days before our 2 pounder's surprise arrival. The nurse's believed the thing was surgically implanted in my husband's hand. Take lots and lots and LOTS of video and pics, Ryan. Trust me, some day, they will be an incredible reminder to you that, yes, this wonderful healthy young lady who is currently driving you bonkers really WAS that little and you really DID live through that (though honestly, you'll never quite figure out how!)

Keep up the great work, Mom & Dad! You're doing awesome!

Posted by: Stacy at February 19, 2011 11:09 PM

I had two kids in Nicu. They weren't as early as yours but it was almost 20 years ago so who knows how it compares. The world seemed to begin and end in that place. Now it's hard to remember. I hope and pray you get to here - when the everyday moments of who started the fight are the most important things you have.

Posted by: Justene at February 20, 2011 12:46 AM
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